I got the new Pearl Jam album today, and it's... fantastic.

It's just pure pleasure to listen to.


The End
Help me see myself
cause I can no longer tell
looking out from the inside of
the bottom of a well
It's hell
I yell
but no one hears

Before I disappear
whisper in ear
give me something to echo
in my unknown futures ear

my dear
the end
comes near
I'm here
but not much longer



As for anything actually art related, well, there's been a lot of stress with school and the extra exams I'm taking for Christmas. It completely ruined any motivation I had to draw. Well, not completely, but you know. So don't expect much until December. xD; Too much stress...

I realised something the other day. I thought that over the last years my art has become more and more drab and boring, and I suddenly figured out why. It's quite simply that I have such a lack of confidence in my own abilities that I've stopped trying. Stopped trying to draw backgrounds or challenging poses, stopped trying new things, simply because I was so afraid of failing. Which is... logical considering failing all the time would have killed off any inspiration I had to draw when I was recovering from my depression. But now I don't have that excuse any more.

So I'm going to start trying again. Pushing myself and aiming for things that are maybe beyond my abilities, but how else will I learn anything at all? So expect some crappy art and bad poses in the near future. xD It's better than being stuck with safe and shiny anyway.

Okay, here's the thing. I've been away from deviantart for a very long time and I don't know as many people as I used to. Basically I wanna start being active again and comment but I have no idea where to begin! To be honest, if I'm going to comment on something I'd much rather it be to someone who doesn't get that many comments in the first place, in stead of some of the super popular ones that get over a hundred comments anyway and probably don't have time to actually read my comment.

So I was wondering. Do you know of any people on dA that you think deserve some attention? For whatever reason, be it their amazing art or their awesome personality, a friend or just someone you know of.

I need somewhere to start! There are a lot of hidden gems on dA but they're so difficult to find...

In return I'll check out your gallery as well and drop a comment or two. :3 That sound fair? XD


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Anyways!

I realized that I really have told anyone what's been going on in my life lately. I don't know if anyone actually, you know, cares, but I'll tell you anyway!

The biggest thing that's happened I guess, is that I've moved to Trondheim with my wonderful boyfriend, Rune, and started school again. It's a really awesome private school right in the centre of Trondheim. Compared to my old school it's heaven! LOL As for me and my boyfriend, we've been together for over a year now and everything's going great. :3

Today I finally managed to get all my exams planned out correctly and all the paperwork fixed so that I can actually take a higher education when this year is over. That was easier said that done! It was making me literally sick for a while. I lose my appetite when I'm stressed out and worried. >__>;; But in any case, now I just need to figure out what education to actually take... o.o; *blank stare* Oh well, there's no hurry I guess. There's not! ... I can't hear you! La la la



Oh, btw, if anyone feels like doing a collab, I'm feeling like colouring something right now! XD


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I'd like to give lots of love to a very fantastic and very neglected person! Go say hi! She's the most amazing person one could ever want for a friend and she draws pretty art as well. What more could I ask for?

How do you come back when you've been gone a really long time? Anyone still around? >_>


Well, first of all, I'd like to say thank you to all my new watchers and for all the favourites and comments I've gotten while I was away. And the pageviews! I've reached 15000, and without me even being here! LOL I appreciate it very much. So thanks everyone!


Anyway, I'll try my best to be active here again, when I have time. I don't know how the submitting part will go because I can't seem to actually finish anything, but at least I'm... doodling. *coughs* As for commenting and stuff like that... I honestly don't know where to start! I don't know anyone here anymore... o.o


I never *really* left though. I've been lurking around in dark corners and answering the occational comment, and that at least, I'll still be doing.


Anyway, if you're still around and happen to read this journal do drop a comment! All my old friends have left...





But seriously, I don't bite. At least not too hard. >_>

Remember me?


LOL

I'm not back. Not really. I'm just sticking my head out from the dark corners I've been lurking around in, but the light is hurting my eyes already so it won't be for long... *cough*

Basically I'm still half dead and might as well be a monkey when it comes to art and drawing.

Things have changed since the last time I've been around. Had a major fight with my parents so I'm basically not talking with my father and I quit my job and... stuff. I'm not going to Japan. Which was kind of a blow to just about everything, my confidence and my future plans... And with everything else I have an exam coming up and god I'm stressed out!

So it's been kind of hard. But bad news aside, I now have a boyfriend. Which is kind of ironic since I basically said I was single forever in my last journal. >_> Haha. Well. It just goes to show that you never know! But then again, how could I know that I would meet someone as fantastic as him? I mean, seriously, it's not likely. He's a smith. X3 And he draws and he's in the military now and we're moving to Trondheim in January.

It'll be good to get away from this place... I'm so sick of it and living at home and work is just taking all my energy and I'm constantly tired and my back hurts. D: *whiiiineee*

But other than that it's all going well. I have all of December off so maybe I'll be back then. Can't promise anything though, you know me. XD;;

*swooshes off to do some actual work allthough she really hasn't got anything to do*

*cough*